My Wedding Blog

So here's the thing:

I call myself a blogger and I have my own webpage which I am supposed to use for professional reasons. I left my well-paying job to become a blogger, believing that it would all work out but the harsh truth is... it isn't quite working out.

I still love to write; however it sucks that I no longer have the guts to write about my experience and ideas. Blogging on that platform is no longer personal, and to be frank - I hate that about it.

I laid in bed last night, thinking... to me, what is important in my life right now?

And the answer is... Drum roll please *doom dee doom dee doom*

My new love life

Ok, I would hardly call it new since we have been together for about a year but.. it's still new. Right?

I mostly avoid talking about it and him because I don't wanna sound corny and appear braggy.. But I've now learnt that I can't as they are both such huge parts of my life!!!

My life is not entirely about him (thank god for that) but the matters that I do find important has aspects of him. For instance, our house.

Yup, I am about to step into the first biggest debt of my life. It doesn't help that we are going to apply for the 4-room BTO at Bidadari which costs as much as a 5-room BTO flat at any non-mature estate. The apartment at Bidadari is so expensive that we might even have to downgrade to a 3-room just so that we could have a home of our own at that prime location.

In case you are wondering, he we are so fixated on that location because it is closer to his work district and studies have shown that if your journey to work is more than 30 minutes, you will be less inclined to be motivated to go to work and will also face added stress when you think about work.

As to what I think about the area... it's nice. I enjoy the new amenities and technology that is invested into the new infrastructure, ie. pneumatic sewage system, bus interchange below the blocks, a home within a park.

But honestly these are just added benefits. I would actually prefer a bigger home to such amenities.

There is a nagging voice at the back of my head that keeps chanting my subconscious concerns... Where do we find space for the kids in the future? How can I have a separate study room from him then? How am I going to find space to fit all of his lego and liquor collection into our tiny home? How...?

I know we will figure out how somehow. I just really wish that our Singapore homes are bigger. #singaporeanrant

At the end of the day, I am not the one who has to wake up at 6.30am to get ready for work. I am also not the one who works till 7pm every night and can't wait to get home for some well-deserved rest. Thus I am ready to give in if it means a happier hubby going to work every morning and coming home to me every night.

With that said, it shows how much my life revolves around my other half and the matters involving him.

And with that comes.. the wedding. The very reason why this blog is born.

Now, before I have to fret my head over renovations, furnitures, electrical appliances and (what I currently fear most) babies.... I need to be done with the wedding first.

My ideation of how a wedding should be has adjusted slightly over the years but there are some things that remain the same.

As I laid beside him in bed last night and before he dozed off into snore-land, I nudged him and asked if his previous statement that I should/can only start preparing for the wedding after our second anniversary is still on the table. He mumbled his reply, "Yeah.. Why? Do you need more time than that?"

Before I could reply him back, he was already snoring and so he left me thinking about his question. I probably don't need more time but a girl can dream, and dreaming is what's been keeping me going and alive all these years.

So here this blog is to help document my dreams and my visions, and I know that it would come in handy one fine day to me or any girl who would like to borrow an idea or two from my box of clouds.